The Science and Story of the Conversational Cosmos and the Path of the Wounded Hero

Kerstin Tuschik
27. Aug.
7 Min. Lesezeit

Aktualisiert: 31. Aug.

The Evolution of Love Teaching & Practice: Week 4 of the One Mountain, Many Paths Summer Program with Kerstin Tuschik and Jacqueline Clark

I was so honored and pleased to have been invited, as a senior student and lineage holder of CosmoErotic Humanism, and as a long-term leader of the Center for World Philosophy and Religion, to teach, together with my colleague and friend Jacqueline Clark, during our six-week Summer Program.

Every summer for the last seven years, Dr. Marc Gafni has stepped away for several weeks to solely focus on writing the next volumes in the Great Library of CosmoErotic Humanism.

During this pause, we open a rare container: Six Sundays of live, evolutionary teaching guided by some of the deeply devoted leaders in our global community. This year’s theme is drawn from one of our most important new books: The Evolution of Love from Quarks to Culture: The Rise of Evolutionary Relationships in Response to the Meta-Crisis.

In week 4 of our Summer Program, Jacqueline and I talked about Conversation as a First Principle and First Value of Cosmos. We live in a Conversational Cosmos. And that is true on all levels, all the way down the evolutionary chain, from the first elementary particles all the way up to us.

And particularly, we talked about all of Reality saying, whispering, and sometimes screaming:

Come closer: I need you; I desire you.
But not too close: Step back a little bit. Give me some space. I still want to be me.
But not too far away: Come closer…

That conversation between the parts is actually what creates larger wholes – on all levels of Reality: Parts coming together in right relationship – the right distance, the right dance between these qualities – is what creates the whole.

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Practice

We are offering here a short practice to make these qualities more conscious in our own lives, to get an embodied sense of how these qualities play in us, how they feel in our body, right now, to bring them together, to heal any split-off parts, and to become more whole by embracing the paradox.

What is my relationship to these qualities in my life?
Where do I see them?

We do that for the sake of the evolution of love in response to the meta-crisis.

The practice shouldn’t take more than a couple of minutes. I (Kerstin) personally like to do this practice on a regular basis (maybe even daily), as it grounds me and allows me to find the right relationship between these qualities on this day, right here, right now.

So, let’s get started.

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Practice to Follow Along

Take a moment to feel and sense into these most basic qualities of Cosmos, which we also call Line and Circle qualities,[1] as they show up, for example, in these polarities:

Being and Becoming
Presence and Desire
Allurement and Autonomy
Being in the Flow and Moving toward something

Write these qualities on cards and lay them out on the floor in the following way:

Stand behind the cards, so the above picture shows what you see in front of you.

On the left side, you see the circle qualities of Cosmos, and on the right, the line qualities.
In the back (meaning, the lower half of the picture) are the Circle and Line qualities of Being and Becoming. They are already present “before” Creation, “before” there even was time and space. There is eternal Being (eternal referring not to endless moments of time but being beneath time), and there is what is known (in the lineage of Kashmir Shaivism) as a Stirring of Desire in the Infinite. The Infinite desires to be Intimate.
And in the front (meaning the upper half of the picture), there are the same circle and line qualities, but in the manifest world, and especially in the human world.
In the center, there is the Leshem Yichud.[2] Here is where we practice uniting all these qualities, not in a static balance, but in a dynamic dance between them.

These cards are not just written words that you then contemplate and think about. They are anchor points that ground these qualities in the room, so you can sense into these qualities in your body when standing on top of them – with your feet about hip-wide apart – anchoring yourself in them.

What body sensations come up?
What feelings?
What thoughts?

Just observe. There may be some aspects of these qualities that come easy to you. Other qualities may be a little less prominent, less conscious, maybe even suppressed. And yet, they are always present. We need them both in order to be whole.

This practice doesn’t have to be static. Allow yourself to breathe and even move if that feels right. Just let your feet be planted on top of the respective card.

So, here are the six steps of the practice:

1. Stand on top of the Being/Presence card and sense into what it feels like to be Eternal Being and Presence—beneath time and space—the Immovable Mover—Eternal Perfection—Love before Creation. Let that feeling dwell up in you, sense it in your body. Then, when it comes to a rest, move to the next card.

2. Stand on top of the Becoming/Desire card and feel into the Stirring of Desire in the Infinite, the Desire for Intimacy, the Desire to Become even more Perfect than the Eternal Perfection that You always already are. Sense the movement of desire in your body. Feel whatever feelings come up. Then, when it comes to a rest, move to the next card.

3. Stand on top of the Autonomy/Effectiveness card and feel into the urge to move somewhere, the line quality that is going somewhere and wants to get there in a straight line. Also feel the need to take up space, to be autonomous, and to live your own life. Feel this quality and sense it in your body. Then, when it comes to a rest, move to the next card.

4. Stand on top of the Allurement/Flow card, and feel into the circle quality of flow, the circling around, the resting inside of the movement, the deepening. Feel the allurement to come closer, maybe even the urge to merge. Sense all that in your body. Feel it in your heart and soul. Then, when it comes to a rest, move to the next card.

5. Stand on top of the Leshem Yichud card and feel into it. Feel the two qualities behind you sourcing you. Feel the qualities in front of you calling you. Bring all of the qualities into your center, your body, your heart. Let circle and line come together in a spiral. Allow yourself the right relationship between allurement and autonomy, being and becoming—not as a static fixpoint but as a dynamic dance. Feel that dance in your body. Feel it in your heart and soul. Maybe you even want to dance here. If so, allow that movement, let your body free.

6. Then, when it comes to a rest, step outside of the cards and look at them from the outside. Maybe journal about your experience or write an Outrageous Love Letter about it—to Source, to an aspect of yourself, or a person you want to deepen your intimacy with. And if you want to, share your experience with us. Write about it here.

Once you have some experience with this practice, there is another possibility. If you really want to go really wild, you may want to experiment with another version of the practice:

Take all the cards, turn them around, and shuffle them. Then, without knowing which card is which, put them with the blank side up on the floor. Then, stand again on each of the cards, and just notice what comes up. Notice all your bodily sensations, your feelings, your thoughts. Maybe take notes or record a message to yourself from each of the cards.

Then, turn the cards around and compare them with what just came through. You may be surprised about the messages that came, which may have something to do with your relationship to these qualities. And again, if you want to, we would love for you to share your experience with us here, so we can really be a community of practice in this New Renaissance.

Footnotes:

[1] We also call these two basic qualities the line and circle qualities of Cosmos. These simple geometric forms tell us something about these qualities:

The line is moving somewhere. There is a goal, a direction, a telos. It is the quality of becoming. There is a hierarchy: I can be higher or lower on that line. And I can draw a line, a boundary, a stop sign.
The circle on the other hand is going round and round. It is not going anywhere. Is the quality of being. It is “just because,” just for play. It is deepening into the moment, right here, right now. There is no hierarchy, but there is an inside and an outside.

Both qualities have light and shadow, and they can be conscious and unconscious. So, the first step is, as always, to make them conscious. And once we have identified them inside of us, these qualities can start to be in a dynamic dance with each other.

If you want to learn more about this, we recommend our Oral Essays book in the Eros Mystery School series: The Erotic Cosmos of Lines, Circles, and Spirals: from Gender Crisis to Unique Gender: Hieros Gamos and Evolutionary Relationships. A good place to start studying how these qualities show up in our lives may also be this essay on Substack.

[2] Once these qualities are conscious, we can bring them together in a dynamic dance. We can do what the Lineage of Solomon calls a Leshem Yichud Kudsha Berich Hu U-She-Chin-Tei—we do this practice for the sake of the uniting (or intimacy) of the Divine Feminine and the Divine Masculine, for the arousal of Intimate Communion between He and She, between the line and circle energies of Cosmos. These qualities seem to be in opposition to each other, and yet, all opposites are always, in the words of Howard Bloom, “joined at the hip.”

Replay of the Teaching

All the practices and teachings are based on CosmoErotic Humanism. See https://worldphilosophyandreligion.org/